Just another turn

Being pregnant is such a weird feeling. It doesn't feel real in all honestly. Yes we have seen the baby and heard the heart beat... but still it just seems crazy.

Yes, I did consent to this, yes I did vow to have children with C. Yes, I knew this day would come. But now that this day is here it is such a crazy feeling to think there is a human being growing inside of me. I am meerly a tabernacle for it, keeping it safe, providing nutrients and helping the growth. You can read a million things and everything tells you the size of the baby, whats developing, how they could be moving inside you but you just can't feel it yet. All of this is happening inside of me, right now and I don't feel a thing.

Its crazy to think that endless days of staring at the inside of a toilet, barely eating breakfast, gaining weight and getting a pooch defines pregnancy. Its truly beautiful and honestly so humbling. I have a human growing in me, and there have been many times I have sat and been mad at the way I am feeling or the way that others make me feel. There are many times that I am annoyed beyond wits end and just want to scream, cry and yell every bad word in the book. Its a fact, this pregnancy is teaching me so much about myself and is making me learn so much about myself.

Someone recently told me that pregnancy is the most spiritual time of your life, and I haven't gotten there yet. But I have realized that this pregnancy is making me become more one with myself and helping me learn more about me than I ever thought I would learn.

Pregnancy is a wild world of crazy, but man has it been a ride. Here's to more of the adventure. Here's to more speed bumps, road blocks, detours and yields. This pregnancy, this baby, is just another turn in the road. Just like so many things in our life can be...