I have never thought about being pregnant before. I always thought it was this really joyous time. Don't get me wrong, I am happy. I am extremely happy. But I just never considered all of the first trimester woes that come along with pregnancy. I don't think I have ever doubted my body more than now, I just want to protect and keep this child safe, and I don't want anything to happen to it. So any time my body does something abnormal, I freak out for a few seconds. Then I get over it until the next spew of new feelings in my body.
Ultimately, this has been such a crazy experience. I am at a time right now where I am not really growing much but I know my little one is safely inside just kicking and growing along. It is such a humbling experience. I am so blessed to be in this moment. To have to trust so fully with everything in my being.
I promised to give pregnancy updates to family, and well those will start coming now, sorry for the delay! Pictures to follow...
Cravings: Lays Ruffled Potato Chips, Sour Cream and Onion Chips, Doritos, icing, Dr. Pepper, Clementines, Avocados, Taco Bell.
No, these are not all combined or ever wanted at the same time, but these have been my cravings so far.
Current Cravings: Chocolate (which I have never been the biggest fan of) and on Friday I will be craving In-n-out because I get to have it on Saturday!!!
Growth: I have not grown much maybe like 1/2 an inch growth of belly so far.
Emotional?: Not overly emotional anymore thankfully.
Morning Sickness?: Nope, I think that I am finally over the hill of nausea. Praise God.
Finding out the sex? YES, are you kidding me I can't last. ha. Maybe next kid will be a surprise!
Elizabeth's feeling of what the baby is?: Girl
Will she tell Christopher? no
Christopher's feeling: Boy.
divided household
Sunday, December 16, 2012
Wednesday, December 5, 2012
Just another turn
Being pregnant is such a weird feeling. It doesn't feel real in all honestly. Yes we have seen the baby and heard the heart beat... but still it just seems crazy.
Yes, I did consent to this, yes I did vow to have children with C. Yes, I knew this day would come. But now that this day is here it is such a crazy feeling to think there is a human being growing inside of me. I am meerly a tabernacle for it, keeping it safe, providing nutrients and helping the growth. You can read a million things and everything tells you the size of the baby, whats developing, how they could be moving inside you but you just can't feel it yet. All of this is happening inside of me, right now and I don't feel a thing.
Its crazy to think that endless days of staring at the inside of a toilet, barely eating breakfast, gaining weight and getting a pooch defines pregnancy. Its truly beautiful and honestly so humbling. I have a human growing in me, and there have been many times I have sat and been mad at the way I am feeling or the way that others make me feel. There are many times that I am annoyed beyond wits end and just want to scream, cry and yell every bad word in the book. Its a fact, this pregnancy is teaching me so much about myself and is making me learn so much about myself.
Someone recently told me that pregnancy is the most spiritual time of your life, and I haven't gotten there yet. But I have realized that this pregnancy is making me become more one with myself and helping me learn more about me than I ever thought I would learn.
Pregnancy is a wild world of crazy, but man has it been a ride. Here's to more of the adventure. Here's to more speed bumps, road blocks, detours and yields. This pregnancy, this baby, is just another turn in the road. Just like so many things in our life can be...
Yes, I did consent to this, yes I did vow to have children with C. Yes, I knew this day would come. But now that this day is here it is such a crazy feeling to think there is a human being growing inside of me. I am meerly a tabernacle for it, keeping it safe, providing nutrients and helping the growth. You can read a million things and everything tells you the size of the baby, whats developing, how they could be moving inside you but you just can't feel it yet. All of this is happening inside of me, right now and I don't feel a thing.
Its crazy to think that endless days of staring at the inside of a toilet, barely eating breakfast, gaining weight and getting a pooch defines pregnancy. Its truly beautiful and honestly so humbling. I have a human growing in me, and there have been many times I have sat and been mad at the way I am feeling or the way that others make me feel. There are many times that I am annoyed beyond wits end and just want to scream, cry and yell every bad word in the book. Its a fact, this pregnancy is teaching me so much about myself and is making me learn so much about myself.
Someone recently told me that pregnancy is the most spiritual time of your life, and I haven't gotten there yet. But I have realized that this pregnancy is making me become more one with myself and helping me learn more about me than I ever thought I would learn.
Pregnancy is a wild world of crazy, but man has it been a ride. Here's to more of the adventure. Here's to more speed bumps, road blocks, detours and yields. This pregnancy, this baby, is just another turn in the road. Just like so many things in our life can be...
Saturday, December 1, 2012
its official
We finally made the announcement that we are having a baby.
A lot of debate came with announcing it on Facebook. We were apprehensive due to the fact that our phones would never stop beeping, lighting up, or vibrating. After serious consideration, we decided to announce it and we are overjoyed at all of the love that has been shown through this.
Over the past 8 weeks it has been quite the whirlwind. I'll be honest this hasn't been the best of weeks. The first trimester has kicked my butt, I am pretty sure all of the moms at the school think that I am either deathly ill, a freak, or that I am pregnant. I am still trying to hide it from them, but as everyone knows I am not the best liar. Scratch that, I STINK at it.
Also over the past 8 weeks, we told family which brought laughter, shock, tears and happiness. We told friends which brought along shared joy and laughter as well. The best of this all though with friends was spending a weekend at a wedding trying to still hide the fact that I am pregnant. When mixing drinking, a secret and happiness. Stuff comes out which leads to hilarious memories, great conversations, and some awkward moments. Like when someone placed their hand on my stomach and said 'babyyyyy' as another friend was standing there. Sometimes life is just too funny.
Lastly pregnancy has brought about one of the most common symptoms of cravings. Oh how Christopher is a saint for not the combinations of food I eat but for HOW MUCH I eat. I have craved everything from Chips Ahoy cookies to icing, Lays Chips. Its amazing what I eat and how much I eat of them!
Pregnancy has been a struggle and a beautiful thing so far. I am still a little in disbelief that we are having a baby. But I am so excited about this little blessing in our lives. I am so blessed with an amazing and supportive husband who puts up with a pregnant wife.
What a ride pregnancy has been so far...Bring on the next two trimesters...
A lot of debate came with announcing it on Facebook. We were apprehensive due to the fact that our phones would never stop beeping, lighting up, or vibrating. After serious consideration, we decided to announce it and we are overjoyed at all of the love that has been shown through this.
Over the past 8 weeks it has been quite the whirlwind. I'll be honest this hasn't been the best of weeks. The first trimester has kicked my butt, I am pretty sure all of the moms at the school think that I am either deathly ill, a freak, or that I am pregnant. I am still trying to hide it from them, but as everyone knows I am not the best liar. Scratch that, I STINK at it.
Also over the past 8 weeks, we told family which brought laughter, shock, tears and happiness. We told friends which brought along shared joy and laughter as well. The best of this all though with friends was spending a weekend at a wedding trying to still hide the fact that I am pregnant. When mixing drinking, a secret and happiness. Stuff comes out which leads to hilarious memories, great conversations, and some awkward moments. Like when someone placed their hand on my stomach and said 'babyyyyy' as another friend was standing there. Sometimes life is just too funny.
Lastly pregnancy has brought about one of the most common symptoms of cravings. Oh how Christopher is a saint for not the combinations of food I eat but for HOW MUCH I eat. I have craved everything from Chips Ahoy cookies to icing, Lays Chips. Its amazing what I eat and how much I eat of them!
Pregnancy has been a struggle and a beautiful thing so far. I am still a little in disbelief that we are having a baby. But I am so excited about this little blessing in our lives. I am so blessed with an amazing and supportive husband who puts up with a pregnant wife.
What a ride pregnancy has been so far...Bring on the next two trimesters...
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