firsts

Life is full of firsts. I went on my first field trip this week as a teacher, I went to my first seminar for teaching, we had our first car trouble as a married couple, we are having our first child, we had our first shower a few weeks ago, we went to our first Russian Orthodox Baptism... Our lives have been full of firsts.

This past week C and I experienced our first trial...car trouble. I know car trouble doesn't seem like a trial, and it probably isn't but in the moment it was. Everyday after school I leave around 3:30pm. I want to miss traffic and get home to my loving husband. This specific day we had a faculty meeting and right as I am walking into the meeting I got a text message letting me know that C's car won't start and he's trying to figure it out. During this meeting I had no idea what my headmaster was saying because all I could think about was what could possibly lie ahead. The meeting ended and after about 30 minutes of waiting we figured that me driving to pick C up would be the best option. For all of you that have had car troubles you know that its something that you can't handle, its something that happens and you just have to deal with. I got to C and we had determined that his car had to go to the shop, it didn't start, wouldn't move, nothing. On our trip home I couldn't help but try and figure out what was going to happen next... but you can't in these situations, in these situations everything is out of your control. You just try to keep your sanity during that time. C looked over at me grabbed my hand and just held on...

Sometimes things are just out of our control. First experiences can be scary. Some first experiences can be so beautiful and enlightening. Some firsts mean showing us a new meaning into our spiritual life... and sometimes firsts just mean that we need to hold on.

During lent I find this so true. Lent isn't a first to us, but during every lent no matter how many times we have given up soda, candy texting or whatever... It is the first time we will experience that lent in this way. You obviously were chosen to give it up during that time for a reason. Who knows the reason but the first is there, it is all a first experience of how the Lord wants you to experience this Lent, this time in the desert.




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Pregnancy:

+She's growing, kicking, moving and loving life. Well thats what we believe to be true.
+She is the size of a head of lettuce!
+Still trying to chose a name, but that has been put on hold for now. We will determine it when we meet her!
+Craving...sushi, and California foods that I obviously can't have because I live so far away.
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